Tomorrow my baby boy is three months old! OH MY GOD! NO WAY!!! This CAN NOT BE!? ALREADY?? It's been a very fast three months and he's is growing and changing so much every day! I look back in amazement at his progress from his May 5th traumatic entrance in to the world, and I'm so so proud of him. He is such a happy baby, very calm and cheerful. He doesn't fuss or get upset often, unless he needs something; to eat, to be changed, to be held, when he's sleepy... other than that hardly ever do you hear an unhappy sound out of his mouth. Brogan is an angel!! His favorite activities at three months include:

Watching lights!! Any lights, the TV, ceiling lights, hanging lights, outside lights, lamps... he likes all lights, still lights, moving lights, Doesn't matterOutdoors!! Looking outside, walking outside, sitting outside, he likes to watch the sky and the trees move, and the birds, he likes going for walks, but he falls asleep a lotJungle Gym/Bouncy Chair!! Reaching and grabbing at the 'buggies on his bouncy chair, reaching and grabbing at the links in the gymLaying on the floor and stretching out his limbs, practicing and getting ready to roll

"Talking!!" to Mommie, Daddy, Grandma, Grandpa, Grammy, the lights, outside, the birds, the TV, the doorknob, his hand, the wall, the birds on the railing... He makes all sorts of noises, ooo and aaa and mmmmm's, laughs and giggles, LOTS OF SMILES

Singing and Reading... Favorite songs include: 'Head, Shoulders, Knees and Toes,' and 'I'm A Little Tea Pot' and he loves all of his books

Bathtime!! Splishing and Splashing in the tub

Being loved on by Mommie and Daddy!! Sitting and being held by Mommie and Daddy... Sleeping with Mommie and Daddy... Doing most anything with Mommie and Daddy!!! =)

Tomorrow Daddy and I plan on taking Brogan out for his 3 Month Birthday!!! LOL We're just going to grab a cheap bite to eat and go to the park or somewhere to take some 3 month photos!

At 3 months postpartum, I'm doing okay. My cut is still healing, and other than that physically I'm almost back to prebaby! Emotionally I'm still having a time adjusting and dealing with the Emergency birth and the NICU experience. I find myself unable to watch or read stories of prematurity or emergency births... it reminds me of how close I came to losing Brogan and it upsets me. I find myself being paranoid of the smallest things, that something may happen to him... I think it's because I came so close to losing him without even really knowing, finding out weeks later just how close him and I were to death, is unsettling to me. That and a combo of not really being in any sort of control over how his birth and hospital stay went... it all happened so fast and I wasn't completely myself. All and all I'm dealing slowly but surely and am luckly to have Darrin who keeps me sane!